We all know the feeling of being stretched too thin. You put everyone else’s needs first and leave yours at the bottom of the list.
But when does that cycle stop?
When do you finally take the time to invest in your health and well-being?
To give you an honest look into this journey, we’ve shared a journal entry from Jessica C.—a member who’s felt all these things and more. She’s taken that first step toward investing in herself, and her story might just be the wake-up call you need.
I don’t even know why I’m writing this. Maybe it’s the quiet, the fact that I have a moment to breathe without the noise of work and everything else that fills my life. It’s been a long time since I’ve allowed myself to just feel something, without trying to fix it, without trying to make sense of it. Maybe that’s why I’m so tired, always feeling like I’m carrying this weight that no one else can see. I wish I could just unload it all, but then what? Who am I without this weight?
I’m so damn tired of always trying to be the strong one. Of being the one people turn to when they need help, when they need guidance. I’ve built this armor, this image of someone who’s got it all together, and maybe I’ve convinced everyone else, but I haven’t convinced myself. Sometimes I wonder if I even know who I am anymore, or if I’ve just become a collection of expectations. There’s always someone who needs something from me, always someone who needs to be taken care of, and I don’t mind it at first. I tell myself it’s worth it, that I’m making a difference. But lately, I feel like I’m losing myself in it.
I’ve spent so much time making sure everyone else is okay, that I’ve forgotten how to check in with myself. I keep pushing down the things that scare me, that make me feel vulnerable, because I’ve been trained to believe that’s a weakness. But it’s getting harder to keep pushing it all down. It’s exhausting. It’s like there’s this constant hum in my chest that never stops, this gnawing feeling that there’s something missing in my life, something I’ve neglected for far too long.
I’ve always been the dependable one, the one everyone relies on. But what happens when I can’t be that anymore? When I have nothing left to give? I’m scared that the answer to that is nothing. That when I’m not giving, I’ll just disappear. I don’t even know what I need anymore. What does it mean to take care of myself when I’ve spent so long putting everyone else first? How do I even begin to ask for help when I’ve been the one doing the helping?
I think about what it would feel like to let go for once, to not have to be “on” all the time. To be just me for a second. But then that feeling comes back, the one that tells me it’s not safe to let down my guard. That if I let people see who I really am, they won’t like me, they won’t accept me. I know I need to trust people more, to open up, but it feels so hard. So risky. I want to believe that someone would still see me, would still want me, even if I’m not perfect. Even if I’m not the person everyone expects me to be.
Maybe that’s my problem: I’m terrified of being real. Of being seen. It’s easier to hide behind the role I’ve created for myself, even though it’s suffocating me. But I can’t keep living like this, pretending I have it all together when I don’t. Maybe, just maybe, it’s okay to be vulnerable. Maybe it’s okay to not have all the answers, to not be the strong one for a while. I don’t have to carry this all alone. I deserve a break.
God, I hope I can figure that out.
The Struggle Is Real, But So Is the Solution!
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